Just A Few Adjustments.

I’m going to dive right in. For starters, I fell in love. I fell in love with someone who isn’t in love with me. And that, in itself, is super hard to deal with. Especially when you fall in love with someone who is your best friend and they aren’t in love with you in return. It hurts. It sucks. It’s miserable. It’s hard to fucking deal with. And I’m not the best at dealing with things that are hard or confusing or misleading or anything else you can think of to call it.

He’s amazing. He’s my best friend. And we are literally together every. single. day. Talk about a pain in the ass. And I know what you’re thinking. Why not just stop hanging out with him? Because I’ve been having the time of my life. I’ve learned so many things by having him in my life. I’ve grown and I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone. I’ve gone places and done things I would have never thought I’d do. And that’s important. It’s important to try new things. Growing is so important.

He makes me happy. Even if it’s not in the way I want him to. He makes me calm. He makes me realize what’s important in life. He makes me feel alive.

And I’ll hold onto it as long as I can. Because I feel honored to even have him at all.

Second, my period stopped about ten years ago. I had cysts on my ovaries and my period stopped and I was told that it probably wasn’t coming back. The word pre-menopausal was thrown around. It was super weird.

Well…I fell in love and apparently my body decided it wants a baby because now my period is back. And that’s been insane. For all the ladies reading this, remember your very first period? And how hard it was to adjust to it? And how much it fucked with you at first? Okay, well try reliving those adolescent days in your late twenties. It’s been insane.

So I’ve just been trying to learn how to deal. And it may take me some more time. But at the end of the day, I’m happy. I’m healthy. And I’m just taking it one day at a time. It’s all anyone can do.

Be happy. Be healthy. Live. Laugh. Love. Be free. Have a ball. Don’t take the things you have for granted. You’re lucky to have what you have.

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Love Yourself.

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“In your life you will cross paths with many people who want to put you down. Don’t be one of them.”

I’m not sure who said it, but I literally live by it.

Insecurities are a funny thing and we all have them. Some people let their insecurities define them. Some people, like me, have their days where they let their insecurities eat them alive. I’m working on it.

But at the end of the day, just love yourself. Because you’re the only you. And it doesn’t matter what you look like or how much you weigh or how smart you are. Everybody is good at something. Everybody has something to offer the world.

If there’s something about yourself that you don’t like, change it. If it’s something physical like your nose or your ears, learn to love them. They’re a part of you. Unless you have thousands of dollars for a nose job. Then sure. Go with that. I wouldn’t recommend it though. You might just miss it once it’s gone.

I get over my insecurities by focusing on my good points. I’m fun. I’m silly. I’m hilarious. I’m witty. I’m kind. I’m a good friend. I sing well. I have pretty eyes. I have great hair.

Make a list of what you like about you. Pretty soon, what you don’t like won’t matter as much.

I was bullied a lot when I was in school. I hated myself. I hated everything about me. You know what they say; You’re your own worst critic. It’s true. Nobody hated me more than I did at one point.

But you grow up. And you realize that the things other people think about you don’t matter at all. Especially when you realize that most of them aren’t true.

So start loving yourself. Live your life for you. Don’t waste time or thought on what other people think because they’re not in control of your life.

And if it means anything to you at all, I love you just the way you are.

You’re the perfect you.