I learned a very important lesson yesterday. And it’s not even the first time I’ve learned this lesson. For some reason, my brain forgets this lesson, and then I throw myself into a situation that forces me to re-learn this lesson over and over.
Mind your own fucking business.
Yes. That is it. The one thing I never seem to really learn how to do.
I can blame it on a lot of things. I’ll be the first person in this world to admit that I’m a nosy bitch. For real. 100%. I am super nosy. I’m just a very curious person, naturally. I like information. I like to be included on the gossip. I like to know things.
It’s a trap.
Another thing I blame it on is the fact that I really feel for people. If someone is sad or confused or needs help in any way whatsoever, a little alert goes off in my subconscious that is basically screaming “YOU NEED TO HELP THIS PERSON. YOU NEED TO MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER. DO IT. IT’S YOUR JOB.”
It’s not my job.
My brain just thinks it is. Therefore, I am constantly putting my own self at risk because here I am trying to help people, and coincidentally it’s with the information and gossip that I so willingly absorb through my pores like a sponge, which puts us back at square one where I should at some point say to myself that I need to mind my own fucking business.
We’ll probably have this same exact talk again.